|Sunday, May 11th, 2008|
i really need to think before i freak out about things.
|Tuesday, April 29th, 2008|
my neighbor passed away yesterday of battling cancer for a yr and though its a blessing that she doesnt have to suffer anymore it still is a shock that she is gone.She was my grandma's best friend and ive known her since i was born.She was such a strong woman and was a part of the family.My mom,grandma and i went over to bring some food to her husband and we were talking to her daughter for a bit and talking about memories of her and i started crying.today was the first time i saw my grandma cry and it broke my heart.she is goin to be deeply missed and things wont be the same without her.Im tryin to be strong but i know at the wake tomorrow its goin to be really hard.i have never known anyone like her and was blessed to have known her. we will all miss her and all the happy times we shared together. Current Mood: sad
|Sunday, November 18th, 2007|
|the day from hell
so i had the day from hell today,It all started out when i came into work this morning and i find a note from joe (my assistant) because he worked yesterday and i guess they were kind of busy and 4 younger teenagers came in and ended up stealing shoes.They found 5 pairs of shoes stolen! i was so mad because i had 3 people on working and they couldnt watch them good enough and then i guess he confronted someone without even knowing for a fact that they stole.Our policy is that u need to witness them stealing and know exactly what they have and where they concealed it etc.So that person can totally go back and complain to corporate about that and he can get in a lot of trouble and then i would get in trouble because my staff should know what to do in that situation.And my DM is coming in tomorrow for an interview and when she sees all of our stolens she is goin to flip.And even though i wasnt there i will get the blame because im the store manager.So the day didnt start out too well.Then i worked with 2 part timers and people kept changing their mind with stuff like they wanted to add on another pair of shoes etc and once u put in the coupon u cant go back so i had to do a ton of post voids so im sure i will get yelled at for that because they dont want u to do it a lot because it looks bad and i might get red flagged for it.Then one of my part timers didnt load the receipt paper right and the reciepts werent printing out so i had to do a hand written receipt which took a while and i got nothing but attitude from a costumer.Then it was 2 mins to 6 (we close at 6) and a whole bunch of people came in so i didnt get to close totally til 20 after 6 because people werent getting the point that we were closing.Then everything was all done and i was goin out to my car and realized that i didnt have my keys and somehow i locked them in the van this morning and didnt realize it so i had to stand outside in the cold waiting for my brother to come out to unlock my door.so yea my day has been horrible and tomorrow i have a feeling my DM is goin to bitch at me for stuff.I have been nothing but stressed out this whole weekend.work is definately getting to me and is stressing me out.I dont know what to do anymore.I hate how things are goin well and just like that they get messed up.I think I have a permanent kick me sticker on my ass because thats how ive been feeling lately.I just wish i could get away for a while and not be so stressed out.i got a total of 5 hrs of sleep the past 2 days and its driving me insane. Current Mood: stressed
|Tuesday, August 21st, 2007|
i am physically and emotionally exhausted.I had a long and dreadful day at work.The only perk was my sweetheart of a bf called and we got to talk for a little bit.Damn i miss him but anywhoo back to school is in its full swing and i dont remember last yr being so bad.People are so ignorant and rude and it makes me wonder why society is the way it is.I mean people freak out over the dumbest things and they treat the person who is trying to help them like shit.Sometimes i wonder why i even stay in retail.Its times like these i wish i was doing something else with my life.Dont get me wrong i do enjoy my job sometimes but more times i dont.i just cant wait til everything calms down again and i dont have to deal with all of this stuff.i havent been sleeping well at all and its driving me nuts.The harder i try to sleep the more i toss around.I know its due to stress but i dont even remember the last time i slept the night all the way through.I duno but my bed is callin my name right now so its time to attempt to go to sleep and have another exciting day tomorrow at work. Current Mood: exhausted
|Monday, March 26th, 2007|
|these 2 yrs have felt like i lifetime...oh what a day
so its been a long time since i updated this thing so today is the day that i do just that! things here have been pretty good lately.Just celebrated my one yr at famous footwear and got myself a promotion and a nice raise.Ever since leaving spencers i feel much more appreciated and i get praise for my good work which i never got there.I will hopefully be moved up to store manager in less then a yr if everything goes as planned.So im starting to feel as though things are heading in a positive direction.Winter is finally gone which im super excited about.Nice weather always puts me in a good mood.Last night my friend and i went downtown and drove around.I know i go downtown a lot but everytime i go i find new and interesting things about the city.Im not really a city girl but if their was a chance to move there i think i would.Its such a pretty city that lights up at night and u cant help but smile when u see that skyline.Nick and i are doin well.He came here in dec and i loved having him here for christmas.It was even more special celebrating xmas with him.Im goin out to see him in july which im super excited about.It will be summer weather so we can do more outside. we both miss each other a lot but we are working on being together,it seems as though we have been working on it for a while but i think now we are more positive in thinking that we will get to that point in the future.We both love each other so much that we dont want to lose each other.But i know that one day we will get married and be together forever and thats all the motivation i need to get all of this straightened out.A lot has happened this past yr but for once im comfortable in saying that the older i get the more life gets better.Im looking at things in a whole new light and dont stress over the small stuff which i think helps me out a ton.there is nothing but goin up from here!
|Wednesday, February 14th, 2007|
|F@#K V-Day ~<~@
so today is valentines day.Just when u think it couldnt get worse it does..having a day to remind the single people and the ones who cant be with their loved ones how much it sucks.I know i shouldnt let it bother me,i mean ive been through this yr after yr but i hate seeing how everyone around me is with the person they love and are out on dates and such.I know that nick and i will be together one day but it just sucks because i want to be with him so bad.I know that their is light at the end of the tunnel but i hate the whole waiting aspect of it all.I guess i have my friends but only one has called so far.I dont think we will be hanging out because he works late tonight so its another lonely night in.I am looking forward to visiting nick in the summer hopefully.But right now i wish that we were together.Oh how i hate this so called holiday! Current Mood: cranky
|Sunday, February 4th, 2007|
the bears are losing :( rex grossman i hate u!
|Saturday, December 16th, 2006|
2 hrs to go and im headin out to o'hare to pick up nick at the airport!! he lands at 715 so by 8:00 we will be together! im so damn excited i miss him so much.so yea time to get some last minute stuff done before i leave.eeeek!
|Wednesday, December 6th, 2006|
|its almost here!
10 days til the love of my life is here! dec 16th needs to get here faster! Current Mood: cold
|Tuesday, November 14th, 2006|
just took a nap and i feel 100% better. yay for naps!
|Sunday, November 12th, 2006|
|i dont know
so a friend who i havent seen or hung out with for a long time wanted to make plans to hang out today which i thought would be fun so i left my whole day open...still no call and when i called her house her mom said that she was out for the day.Now what the hell how does someone just forget about hanging out when we literally talked 2 days ago about it? i duno this happens all the time with her i duno maybe im just overreacting but i could be doin other things then just sitting around the house waiting for someone to call.GRR!
|Monday, November 6th, 2006|
|so close but yet so far..... ps. i miss u
I'll be the grapes fermented,
Bottled and served with the table set in my finest suit
Like a perfect gentlemen
I'll be the fire escape that's bolted to the ancient brick
Where you will sit and contemplate your day
I'll be the waterwings that save you if you start drowning
In an open tab when your judgement's on the brink
I'll be the phonograph that plays your favorite
Albums back as your lying there drifting off to sleep...
I'll be the platform shoes and undo what heredity's done to you...
You won't have to strain to look into my eyes
I'll be your winter coat buttoned and zippedstraight to the throat
With the collar up so you won't catch a cold
I want to take you far from the cynics in this town
And kiss you on the mouth
We'll cut out bodies free from the tethers of this scene,
Start a brand new colony
Where everything will change,
We'll give ourselves new names (identities erased)
The sun will hear the grounds
Under our bare feet in this brand new colony
Everything will change Current Mood: lonely
|Saturday, November 4th, 2006|
so tonight we took muh dad out for dinner for his birthday and i ate way too much and now im miserable.lmao.So we told our waitress that it was his birthday and they made him stand up in front of everyone and sang him happy birthday.It was hilarous because the place was packed.teehehe we are so mean.Not a whole lot has been goin on here really.Went to my friends house last night and i havent seen her in forever..well not forever but it seems like it.She's getting married in june and its on her and her fiance's anniversary which is funny because nick and my anniversary is on the same day so i thought it was funny.Well my other friend i found out is not engaged which the story about it is pretty bad.Ever since my friend Ashley started planning her wedding my friend Jill has been pestering her bf to get her a ring.So she's been nagging him for months about it and she even had the nerve to tell him which ring she wanted.So i guess they got into an arguement and she was like " ur never goin to propose to me and get me a ring and im sick of waiting etc" so he gets mad and gets the box out and was like " i got u a ring" and she called him a liar so he gave her the box and was like " its right here!" so she opens it and complains that its the wrong one and its ugly.OMG who in their right mind would do that? she should be happy that he wants to marry her spoiled ass anyway.That just annoys me because guys wait their whole lives to have that one moment where they get a chance to pick out a ring and get to plan out the whole proposal and there are girls like her who just crush the whole thing.I duno she thought nothing of it and she ended up goin to the jeweler to pick out the one she wanted.So yea i got to hear everything about weddings etc last night which was uncomfortable for me.So yea last night was interesting to say the least.Then today i went to the mall and ran into two girls who i havent seen in a few yrs and didnt want to see so that was interesting.So i hope they dont try to start talking to me again because i dont need all that drama in my life anymore.So yea im looking forward to the holidays and spending time with nick,i miss him so much and im starting to plan out things for us to do so im getting more excited.Only one month to go!
|Friday, November 3rd, 2006|
sometimes i wish i was someone else. Current Mood: blah
|Tuesday, October 3rd, 2006|
People can be so rude sometimes.So this morning I woke up and went to the laundry mat and driving up to the parking lot i could see that it was busy for a tuesday morning.So i get everything out of the car and headed inside and started doin my laundry.So about an hr goes by and i was finishing up folding everything and i noticed a delivery truck backed into a space and took the last spot so u would think anyone coming into the parking lot would park on the side spots.Well wouldn't u know a jerk parks right smack behind me and has his car running and he was talking to the delivery guy.So i thought that by the time i get done he will be done with whatever the heck he was doing and move.Well i was wrong so i came out with my basket loaded with clothes and put everything in the car.So i slammed the door so he would get the hint and he just looks at me.So i got in the car and started it so then he would get the hint.But no luck so i rolled down my window and said " ur car needs to move i dont have time to sit here and wait til ur done parking." i was so mad because what did he expect parking behind someone like that.So I heard him call me a bitch to his friend and was like " ill move it in a second" so i snapped and said " i dont have a second" so then he got really pissy and got in his car and sped off.What does he think im goin to be all nice as pie and wait til he was done talking? i dont think so! i hate how people act like its ur fault when they park all stupid.So yea next time im deffinately getting up earlier so i dont have problems like that again. Current Mood: annoyed
|Monday, October 2nd, 2006|
|been a long time...
i dont know what i did last night but i hurt my back.So im all in pain and i dont like it.And i have to go to work today and its goin to suck.Maybe i can use that as an excuse to not do anything today *thinks* lol.So things here have been good lately.I hang out with my friends a lot so that makes me happy.Nick and I are doin great and we are counting down the weeks til he comes over and im uber excited.teehehe.My friends are all excited to meet him too so he's goin to have fun while he's here.Work is goin okie at the moment.Their is talk of me getting transferred again which im not happy about.I just get comfortable at a place and they want to move me.U would think i would have a say in this but i dont.So i applied at my friends work so hopefully i can get in there.Its a receptionist job that pays more than what im getting now with really good benefits 9 to 5 monday through friday and best of all its not retail lol.So ill see how that goes so *fingers crossed* yea so everything pretty much is on the up and up.so yea life is good...at least for the moment
|Wednesday, September 13th, 2006|
its cold and raining and im tired...its goin to be a long day
|Monday, August 21st, 2006|
|blast from the past
So last night after seeing the movie with ryan (which was cheesy and hell) i stopped home to get more money so we could hang out more and brett ended up getting out of work early so we all met at my house.Well my mom was telling me that someone from my past called and wanted to catch up on things and wanted to apologise about how she treated me in grade school etc etc and i had no clue who she was goin on about.So finally she gave me a name and it was a girl i went through kindergarten all the way to 6th grade with and was friends and just lost touch over the years.She is now divorced has two kids and is back living at home and i guess she saw me at the wake the other day and wanted to get in touch and to talk.So after i got home from work i called her and we remaniced about old times and who we have seen from school etc.She didnt treat me bad in school and the reason we stopped talking was she moved away and we drifted apart.It was so random that she called but in a way im glad because it makes me proud of all of my accomplishments and because i wasnt the "popular" girl in my class i got to a whole hell of a lot more in my life so far then any of the girls who used to tease me.I lost a lot of friends throughout my life but im happy the way things are working out for me.So i duno how long we will talk to each other for but id really like to keep in touch we had a lot of good times growing up and its goin to be so weird seeing her now because all i can think about is her as a kid.so i guess ill see what happens.Oh yea and staying out til 5am and having to wake up at 8 to go to work this morning is not fun but boy did i have fun at the bar with my friends. Current Mood: exhausted
|Sunday, August 20th, 2006|
so tonight i wanted a group of us to go out to dinner and to a movie.And of course all my friends bailed on me except ryan so its just the two of us.Should be fun anyway but it sucks because everytime i try to plan something it all gets messed up.We are goin to see snakes on a plane it looks so bad but u cant help to want to see it.So if its as cheesy as they say i should be a happy girl lol.Ive been so stressed out with crap at work that its good to hang out with friends every so often.Went with some friends on fri night to bar louis and it was a blast in a half lmao.Except for these creepy guys who kept staring at us but it was something for us to make fun of so it was okie.I have a feeling we will go back there because it was a lot of fun.I ended up having to open the next day which sucked because i was exhausted and hung over and we were super busy with people shopping last minute.What is up with people these days ur kid starts school on monday and u wait 1 or 2 days before to get fricken shoes.Honestly dont be a dumbass and shop last minute and u wouldnt have stuff to bitch and moan about.If i have one more person bitch me out because we dont have a size they need im goin to throw a shoe at their head lol.But i am happy i dont work at the mall anymore though because i dont get half the crap i did there.so yea exciting things happening lately.lol i need a vacation Current Mood: stressed
|Tuesday, August 15th, 2006|
just found out some bad news.A girl i went to grade school and high school with her brother got into a horrible car accident.I dont talk to this girl anymore because we never got along etc but i feel so bad for her family.He just got a car and has been driving so bad around the neighborhood that i knew he would get into some kind of accident but never thought it would be as bad.He past away this morning after being in critical condition last night.I just want to send my prayers and thoughts to his family during this tough time.